Assalamu'alaikum.
Hello people~! I know I've been on hiatus for too long. *grins*
And no, I'm not updating my blog because people asked me to.*pokes*
It's just that I don't wanna let all this go to waste. I'm gonna make this blog better! Improvise a little bit over here and there. haha.
Let's see..updates?
Well, firstly, I'm officially single again. *grins* Don't ask why, 'kay? It's best for the both of us. I don't want to involve the people I love into something they don't know about. Especially the dangerous secrets of my life. I'm happy that for once, finally, a stranger loved me. Could you believe that? Someone I don't even know loving me. The happiest thing about that was she loved me for who I am. And I'm truly grateful for that. I could never exchange that moment of happiness for the world. And truth be said, I love her. I truly do, with all my heart and soul.
About a week before my 17th birthday, I made the decision to part with her. Not because of our flaws, but I could no longer stand hurting her. I realised that love does indeed blinds a person. But in exchange for that blindness, it takes the person to a beautiful world. One seen only through our hearts. It gave me strength to face the things I could never face alone before. Gave me courage to take a leap of faith and stand for what I believe in.
Should I tell what happened previously? I guess I could type the things I wanted to say on my blog, huh?*smiles*
Everything that happened was related to the incident on 'that' day. The day that made its mark in our school this year, everyone was forced to evacuate the school. And only few people were left to handle 'that'. One of that few was me. I could say that 3 people from our class were asked to help because we were the few who were completely involved, and we were in need of one for reliance to stand up against it. The incident on that day marked the beginning of the worst roller coaster ride in my 17 years of life. It also marked the end of my own self. All in all, it was that single beginning which shed a beautiful fervent light upon my heart. One that would save me from drowning in my own thirst for love.
So, we parted a few months after that incident. Since, it relation to me was somewhat severe than any of them. And I could no longer involve the people I love in this. Thanks to that, I fell deathly ill, with a broken heart and a memory loss. Pathetic, right? But I managed to save the person I love from falling with me. At least her, I would save from all this. Afterall, she was the girl I came to risk everything I had to love. After we parted, I met my senior again. She told me this," You lost everything when you fell in love with that girl. Do you wish to still do everything you can in this short amount of time to protect her, until this thing ends? "
Well, you could guess the rest. Of course I did. She even said I was the stupidest guy, who would protect the person he just broke up with. And she smiled when she said that. I guess, you could say that she somehow knew my pain. So, I got it over with ( the remainings of the incident..like duh.), gathered what was left of the broken me and went for retraining. I'm still under the retraining right now.
I've decided on something..
No matter how long it takes, whatever it takes. I will keep moving forward with a smile. I'll keep improving myself, until the day comes when I can fully protect the person I love without hurting her.
Well, that's all I guess. I'll update soon about my 'O' level and my holidays. Goodnight people! Sweet dreams, ayte!
